On a different note.

I need to do a final project for my painting class.
I need to dig down and do some artistic therapy.

I feel like I'm beating a dead horse.
I need to purge.
I need to be ok.

I will be ok.
Please don't take my posting from a few minutes ago as an "I give up."
It's really more of an "I'm so facking frustrated."
I throw my hands up because I know why I'm frustrated.

I'm not so naive.
I'm not so stupid.
I think far too much to be ignorant of my own thoughts.

I just don't think I can type them all out here.
I don't have an outlet.
So, I will make my art my outlet.
And then I will post that.

It will strip me emotionally raw.
And I think it's ok that way.